YL - First Doctor-y Pay

Woot! I got my first pay as a doctor yesterday! And I'm working my first weekend as one ... hmmmm ... praying for a calm.

Dr YL - yup it's official

I wouldnt have believed it if I wasnt there myself. I actually made it. It's totally surreal.

Now that I'm a doctor ... ... *grin* ... ...

YL - 2 weeks to go & markets

And more importantly, even though it was WAY after hours, and I dont get paid ... I think I made a difference today. Actually I definitely made a difference on Tue and again today. The long hard slog has indeed been worth it.

Anyone wants to go to the markets on Sat? Like Paddington market? I bought a pale yellow dial phone today at the RPA market! I feel the urge to shop for beautiful things.

YL - More fires, gym class, making new friends is kinda bizzare

Ok well everyone knows Broadway shopping center caught on fire. Big news at the hospital. Everyone looked at me and went "will you be able to go home this time"? Lol. Hilarious. I swear I am in fight/flight mode still. Half expecting the world to come crashing down in a physical sense.

Back at the gym now. Still dont think I can do 6.30am classes (kudos Kim) or boxing (kudos Anna & Joe). But working on it. Attended BodyPump which was good. Went to BodyJam and was totally 2 left footed for half of it. Also went swimming at Coogee Sun afternoon after dropping parents off at airport, planning another beach thing this weekend.

Making new friends is kind of bizzare. Especially doctor ones. You guys know a fair bit of the stuff I've been through. We've got history together. You guys know I'm crazy. These new people ... dont know me. Should / Can I hide this craziness? Is it even possible anyway. Maybe it's too late. I dont think I could be anything else but what I am ... and what I am ... is it a bad thing anyway? Maybe they're just normal people. Is that also even possible? I'm sure you guys dont judge me ... do you? will they? Questions without answers.

But hey at least they arent looking at me sideways like the med school students! Or looking down on me. Well not that I can tell ...

YL - back in Sydney & intern orientation

Made it through 2 days of non stop lectures from 8am-5pm complete with 30min talks on handwashing and 1 hr on disaster training (so to speak). But I think I know how to fill in the complex national medication chart now!

Also met some lovely new people & hopefully new friends. All UNSW people. God knows the USyd ones keep to their own groups. Lol. 2 more days of lectures to go. Is it a consolation that one is getting paid?

My ID badge picture is great! And it says "Dr" and "Medical Officer" *beam* 7 weeks to go to full validity! Woot.

YL - just one more day

Yeah I have been telling myself that for weeks, nay months, nay years. And finally in terms of exams, it is just one (and three) more days. Written on Mon, practical on Wed. omg when will this be over? *insert pained cry* *shakes fist*

I will just say I am very ranty about a lot of things right now. still being a medical student, other medical students in the new 4th year, people who suggest that I was unsure about doing medicine (*shakes fist*), people who look down on me that it took +3 years to do this degree (hey my reasons were genuine compared to the person who had to repeat a year cos the person slept with a patient and came back to tell others about it!!) and random assortment of things - some completely unrelated to med.

omg please let this be over soon. I cant bear to do the dance of sucking up and placid smiles and purported interest anymore. I suck at being a medical student but I'm going to make a helluva better doctor than half this crowd. *gestures with frustration*

YL - Country Doctor

Almost there! At 5pm 7 Mar, you can call me Doctor. And I got my paperwork from Westmead yesterday. 31 Mar I start work at Coffs Harbour Hospital for 5 months! Emergency Dept then General Medicine. So I'll be off to the country for a bit of a seachange but will be coming back montly to Sydney anyway. Still no Latte since hospital accomodation doesnt allow pets I think. *mutters*

So while I'm not entirely sure if the future will be bright/dark ... it sure will be different! That much will be interesting.